Paper Hands (v2)

[Verse 1]

I keep my name

on the back of my hand

just so I remember

I am not a plan

I fold up my wants

like clothes in a drawer

then I stand in the hall

and I want something more

My mother said

"Don't shrink for the room"

but I still go quiet

when they all approve

[Pre-Chorus]

I can feel it coming

that old safe disguise

same shape, same smile

same cut in my eyes

If I vanish here

who's gonna know?

I don't want to live

on autopilot slow

[Chorus]

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

Say my name out loud

let it hit the wall

I wanna break the mold

before I become small

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

a copy of it

[Verse 2]

There’s a half-finished sketch

on the edge of my bed

all the colors I loved

kept under my head

I laugh too fast

when I feel exposed

like a door on a hinge

that never fully closes

And I see my years

in a grocery line

same old face, same cart

same muted light

[Pre-Chorus]

I can feel it coming

that old safe disguise

same shape, same smile

same cut in my eyes

If I vanish here

who's gonna know?

I don't want to live

on autopilot slow

[Chorus]

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

Say my name out loud

let it hit the wall

I wanna break the mold

before I become small

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

[Bridge]

[Strip to piano and breath]

If I shake, let me shake

If I crack, let me crack

I have spent too long

trying to give it back

To every room I enter

to every face I see

a version of me

that's easier to keep

But I am here

messy and awake

holding my own heart

with both hands wide

[Final Chorus]

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

Say my name out loud

let it hit the wall

I wanna break the mold

before I become small

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it

I don't want to fade

I don't want to fit

I don't want to be

a copy of it