5 Years gone

[Verse 1]

You hurt me more than you could ever realize

You left the deepest scar I have ever had

Now each time I get close

I’m afraid of getting that scar reopened

Now I lay awake, crying myself to sleep

’Cause I’m thinking of us and how you betrayed me

Then one day I see you with him

And it just drives the knife deeper into that wound

[Pre-Chorus]

I start to think I’m the problem in every new relationship

Whenever a problem happens, I take the blame

’Cause that’s the type of girl you were

Always making me take the blame

[Chorus]

You’re gone, but what happened still follows me

You made it hard to trust anyone with my heart

Every time I get close, I’m scared they’ll tear it apart

’Cause I have no idea what other types of girls there are

You made me question if I’m good enough

Now I barely know how to show what I feel

I wanna love again, but I don’t know if I can

’Cause you made me afraid to trust someone again

[Verse 2]

It’s been five years since you walked out of my life

Five years, but somehow it still feels like last night

I thought with time these wounds would disappear

But somehow the fear is still sitting right here

I see someone I like and I start to pull away

I tell myself I’m fine, but I know that’s not true

I want to give somebody my heart someday

But I’m scared they’ll do what you did too

[Pre-Chorus]

I start to think I’m the problem in every new relationship

Whenever a problem happens, I take the blame

’Cause that’s the type of girl you were

Always making me take the blame

[Chorus]

You’re gone, but what happened still follows me

You made it hard to trust anyone with my heart

Every time I get close, I’m scared they’ll tear it apart

’Cause I have no idea what other types of girls there are

You made me question if I’m good enough

Now I barely know how to show what I feel

I wanna love again, but I don’t know if I can

’Cause you made me afraid to trust someone again

[Bridge]

Five years gone, and I’m still right here

Still carrying the things you left me with

Maybe one day I’ll learn to trust again

Maybe one day I won’t be scared of love

But right now, when someone gets close

I feel that old fear come back

You’re not here anymore

But somehow you’re still holding me back

[Final Chorus]

You’re gone, but what happened still follows me

Five years later, and you’re still a part of me

I wish I could trust someone with my heart

Without being scared they’ll tear it apart

I wanna feel something without hiding it

I wanna love without being terrified

Maybe someday I’ll finally let someone in

But right now, I’m still healing from where it all began

[Outro]

You’re gone…

But what happened still follows me.